Depression…

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Giving up on it
I don’t really see the point
It’s all meaningless.

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As a teenager, I struggled with depression that lead me to contemplate suicide. It’s kind of sucked at 15 when I bought the lie that life just wasn’t worth living. Almost twice that time has passed, and here I sit, the father of two awesome kids, married to a really lucky woman and having lead a life that is almost worth being written about. Almost (but then, I’m a bit self-defacing so…). It was during this time frame that I became a Christian, and my depression has become part of my testimony, a testimony I have shared countless times and one day I may put down in words. But, I overcame (with help) a dark time in my life, and although I still struggle with those feelings to this day, I know there is more to life then the darkness that tries to engulf me.

Hidden Pain

I don’t know who I am anymore,

the mirror lies to me when I look

I don’t know who I am anymore

My innocence the world took,

Huddled in a ball on the floor,

Knees pulled tightly to me,

Huddled in a ball on the floor,

Screaming out “Just let me be.”

I don’t know who I am anymore,

The masks are stripped away,

I don’t know who I am anymore,

There is nothing left to say.