Walks in the Rain…

 

It didn’t matter if it came down in sheets, buckets or drizzles, Emily loved walking in the rain. What most did not know about the solitary walker in the wet world was that it was in times like this when she felt closest to her dad. She would get lost in the moments of memory when he would hold her hand as she splashed in puddles as a kid.

At Death’s Bed…

I wonder how long it will be until the darkness swallows me whole. I can feel it consuming me on the inside. Slowly trickling into every corner of my brain.

There’s no pain, none to speak of anyway.

There’s no remorse, none that matters anyway.

There’s no song, none to hear anyway.

For All To See….

She stared into the mirror

unhappy with what she saw,

but  words soon did appear,

that she began to draw,

The Promise

“You said you would be here. You said you would come for me.” Her thoughts echoed in her head just like the sound her bare feet made on the concrete floor of the hallway she was being led down. The two men, one on either side, guided her by metal poles that were attached to the chain belt secured around her waist.

“Where are you? You can’t leave me here. Not to die. Not like this.” Her mind wrestled with the thoughts of being abandoned and left behind. Fear was not something she was accustomed to, but now, in the dim lighting of the hallway as she was led toward the light at the end, it crept into her like a poison, threatening to steal the very core of her belief away. She shook her head violently, her matted brown hair swinging back and forth as she struggled as much against her restraints as against the dark thoughts entering her mind.

The Deep Breath

I took a deep breath.

Held it in for a few seconds.

Let it out slowly through my mouth.

Daughter sits up.

Looks over at me.

Glares.

“Don’t do that again.”

Too many memories

of the dying

wrapped up

in that sound.

Hidden Pain

I don’t know who I am anymore,

the mirror lies to me when I look

I don’t know who I am anymore

My innocence the world took,

Huddled in a ball on the floor,

Knees pulled tightly to me,

Huddled in a ball on the floor,

Screaming out “Just let me be.”

I don’t know who I am anymore,

The masks are stripped away,

I don’t know who I am anymore,

There is nothing left to say.